we're different in our own ways

warning this is a long blog......

You may not care to what I wrote
For the things I wanted to share
To open up those sleeping minds
And for the hearts that’s hard to forgive


Sure, I’m not so wise
Often times I got blinded by the light
Sure, I’m not popular
And to the point no body care
I’m not that nice
Sometimes I do bad just to feel better
I’m not also that pretty
For the guys to see me
You may look at me outside
But one thing you can’t surely
See
This is the real me inside
So many times I got people
On my mind
Asking me why I was born
Informing me that
Their life would happier without having me at that time

That’s why sometimes can’t avoid to wish this crazy
Things I clearly know that’s impossible
I wish I was born with a silver platter
I wish I was born as pretty as should be
I wish I was intelligent as they expect
I wish I’ll never get tired so anyone could see how lucky they are having me around
I wish I ‘m not talkative so I can avoid those people that love intrigues
I wish…I wish… I wish...
Never been contented
Never been enough

A lot of times I 'm wishing for the better
First for my family
My self
For the beggars
For the church
For the sick
And for the truth

And even got into time I was crying so much
Because I was thinking how unfair is life to me
Why God gave me this complicated life
And think I'm so weak to make it alone

And I guess
At the middle of nowhere
I realized something while
I was on the middle of huge aches, pains, suffering and ill caused by unfinished business of those people evolves near me
I was never been alone
God is always good to me giving me those people to make me stronger
And I should not be bitter because I can’t make my life change
And it just so happen I realized that who I am now is what god made and what god what’s me to be..
I never say I’m perfect
I also do hurt someone sometimes
But it’s safe to say they are also

imPerfect because they also do hurt me or someone else
Indeed we need each one of us
To those who hurt they make us stronger
To those who back stabbing on us
They make our life be more exciting
For those who always wants a worst for us
They’re molding a brighter days for us in the end of the battle
To those who loves us
They make us feel special
To those who encourages us to be stronger
They give us a reason to wake up every time the sun comes up
To those who care for us they make us feel special
And at the end of this I want to thank god, everyone and my self
God because he didn’t make it took so long for me to see how beautiful life is
And for me to stop thinking life is so damn selfish for me to not have it all
Maybe this life is already shaped for me and just for me
All the happiness and struggles i experience and I’ll feel

Wala bang kwenta???
Sorry Kung non-sense for some
But this is really what I just thinking and feeling




baka matagalan kasi ako bago makapag blog uli.....

as I promise!!!

here's the first ten french words I'll share to you

this will come as french-english-pronounciation

1. Je suis -I am -jeswis
2. tu es -you -twos
3. il -he -ill
4. elle- she - ell
5. nous sommes- we are- no soms
6. bonjour- hello- bonswahh
7. bonsoir- goodevening- bonsoir
8. moi- me- moy
9. je voud rais- I would like- Je vad rey
10. excusez moi- excuse me- excusemmuahhh

gabbyliciouSS..

hey! i'm back sorry if you think it's too late to post this article but for me time and date doesn't matter..huhh...i just like to express how and what i'm feeling right now..it's like ohh my goshh...ok! this was the story why i'm acting like sOO weird!!just two days ago i'm surffing the net 'til i decide to watch some of kc concepcion's videos and then one of the videoes that appeared was together with sharon and gabby concepcion....then i cliked it and then it the other videoes related caught my attention it's the movie that was been talked of the town andstill being talk of the town it'S the movie "dear heart" .... and since i'm only 15 years old i never had a chance to watch that completely...but then while i'm watching it damn on it!!!i can't help but kiligin the whole time!!! ofcourse the video on-line are so slow i decided to cut it until part 7/13 ....then just yesterday i finished watching it and ...ayyayayyyy....i want to screamed sa sobrang romantic!!! feeling koh ka batch ko sila sa age....kaya yun di ko na tinigilan na mag search for other movie of sharon-gabby!!!pero i admit before pa na i'm not yet watching it i really already idolizing gabby...

simply because i feel how he loves his daughters and because of his physical appearance....

for me jockpot!!!yan,,,

sorry for being a fan!!

pero kahit isang movie lang of their tandem i'm contented with it and after that i think???? i could die....hayyy...

but,,if ever na hindi i'll keep supporting gabby parin his very good-looking and humble and it makes me irritated every time na may issue against him pero natutuwa naman akouh everytime

na may issue na maganda for him....just like yung not guilty for bigamy and plea!!!

woooohhHH...it's like we're related when i react..

kaya..i'm advising those people that are depress at this moment gabby-sharon movie is the best medicine....look at me 2 days na para pa din akong ewan na laging na ka smile......

it's fake!!!!

last tuesday morning i open my friendster account then i got a new message from my long time close and family friend ..And we're long time no seeing each other ,that's why i felt good about it..
she still remember to send message to me...But there's something on her message that's very disappointing she called me B_ _ _ _ !!! And i can analized how come she could call me that way and it really do affect me..i was crying the moment i saw that message , and to be sure i asked my another friend about it and ...........it takes a day before i read her reply due to the inconvinence caused by our internet connection....and her reply says "it's not mearyll's profile someone is faking it...there's someone that wants to destroy her name..and it's her ex-boyfriend"
huhh..........after having a very heavy feelings for about one and a half day atlast all was clarified..Atleast i'm sure that all is ok between me and mearyll....

LanguaGEs

i find this day very exciting cause today is my deadline to my self to copy all the french translation from english language....And i can't wait to finally see my self speaking french fluently! but for now this week is for my english empowerment lessonS [ wow,feel na feel!! ]..It will help me improve my vocabulary ...and after that maybe i can already start studying french..And i'm planning to also study spanish,mandarin and italian..Hopefully i can make it by 2009...and almost forgotten to mention i doing it on-line and all by my self so just imagine how much electricity i'm consuming everyday...And if got more time blogging why not share with you.I'm sure it'lll be fun !!!